Sit and Fluid
When I wrote a post last week, I found myself in a position where I felt I couldn’t go into great depth about the themes I had been exploring with the cards Unique and Sorrow; today I find myself in a remarkably similar situation, although I hope I’ll still be able to share something of interest….
The day after I had selected the cards Sit and Fluid I spent time in the morning practicing centering prayer. As I said when I originally made the Sit card, I have a deep desire to develop my centering prayer practice, but often find myself missing the time in the morning for various reasons. On Tuesday morning, I found the time very refreshing, but was slipping between being still, open and receptive, and feeling pulled to awareness in my head. Very often in centering prayer there is the experience of needing to continually ‘let go’ of thoughts, and on occasions the feeling is that there is far more thinking, ‘busy head’ stuff than being able to rest in a more spacious, open, heart place. My experience on Tuesday was different in that instead of the thoughts needing to be constantly let go of, there was a slower-moving shift between the places of thought and rest, between head and heart.
I remember being aware of this drifting – or shifting – at the time, but not being frustrated by it, and I remember wondering in the ‘thought’ times if this was maybe the way in which fluidity was going to work with sitting… (All you practitioners of centering prayer reading this will know that I wasn’t really following ‘the rules’ by going with this flow rather than continually, reflexively letting the thoughts go!). I found myself feeling very calm and warm, and feeling that both the head and the heart places felt safe and familiar and welcome.
Once again I find myself saying that I don’t feel able to explain in any detail what happened next, but for the second time in a week or so I had an “A-ha!” moment which seemed to shift something at a profound level. In an instant I realised something about a situation in my life and it was like a huge door opened, offering the potential to change life quite considerably. This is no more than a thought at this stage, but it felt hugely significant at the time and has been reverberating ever since.
As for the rest of the week, it’s been a complete write-off in the sitting department (and probably in the fluidity department too…). There’s been too much busyness, an irritating little bug that’s left me feeling nauseous and headachy for days, and the usual battles about sitting still and allowing myself to rest when I feel that I need to start putting ideas into action…
Anyway, despite only really doing something with the cards for one day in the last week, I am continuing to find this an amazing and positive experience and I highly recommend you try something similar!
Now for a mini-pause while I choose my cards for next week. And they are…:
Right. I shall go and find the pictures to add into this post and start sitting with these themes. I hope this is going to mean a week of sitting somewhere warm with a blanket round me… I hope you all have a wonderful week (and that the muse inspires you as you sit somewhere warm and nurturing).
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